as my bad luck keep cumin~~~~

i dunno how to explain to u guys wat happen to me..
things are getting worst day by day...
things are getting bad day by day...
i dunno i can handle it or not...
and i dunno i can stand up bravely in front of u guys AND TALK LIKE A NORMAL CHEERFUL AND TALKATIVE WENDY...

AS WENDY NOW IS BEING GHOST BY BAD LUCK!!~~~

i so wanna thanks to my friend who stand besides me
a friends that gave me advice and listen to me and not being ignore when im in trouble..

as i can feel this bad luck gonna happen soon on few months back..
and it so true that it really happen...

as i want to be alone
as i want to be myself
as i want some1 who true to me talk to me..
as i want an angel besides me as im down..

GOD PLEASE SEND ME AN ANGEL NOW!!! I SO WANNA DIE NOW!!

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dilemma!! dilemma!! dilemma!!

hmmm..
im in dilemma rite now!! i mean now..means now!!
arh!!


D.........I....L...E...M...M....A..!!

IM SO SHOCK THAT I CANT BREATH UNTIL AN END!!

oh my god dilemma gila!!

wien dee or chan wien dee

hm...
wien dee say that my blog is damn cho lo!!
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bt yet is true la...
haha...cox all the rude word is in there...
u tot i wan meh??? mis wien dee.. hahaha

i usually use my blog to lepaskan my geram ...lol..
cox put too much prob. inside my heart can die wan lerh!! haha

bout' previous post is actually bout' my exam and my assignment
that im doing/goin to do...cox i put too much of stress..
and i wrote there dying not memang dying la...
is inside my heart has a feeling of dying..u noe nyawa nyawa ikan..
haha... most ppl read my blog sud. got shock and say:

''huh,wendy will say this word meh?? '' or
'' is this wendy blog??''

of cox is my blog k!!
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bt anyway wont happen next time d..
if i wanna scold i will put **** there..haha

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dying soon!!

i almost faint yesterday..
i almost die in the hospital yeaterday...
i almost thrown out all the water from my body yesterday...
and my parents al most call a casket car for me...

gosh!!...
i all happen almost all inb one day..
and god almost sent me top heaven yesterday..
but luckily i recover..

but too bad...
my brain, my head stil spinning..
spiinning cox of dizziness...
spiining cox of weakness....
and god...pls help me recover soon..

and im too young to die..
im too young to let u send me to heaven..
and im too young too let u punish me to go to heaven ..

cox i got toone of things not yet dooo...
i stil got my future to go...
i still got a lot of things to makes my dream come true..

sooo godd!! plx dont let me die so soon

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WAAAAAIIITINGGGG!~~~~~~~

IM WAITING FOR U~~~
WAITING FOR U~~
WAITING FOR U KISS ME AT THE NITE...

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AS I MISS U AS MANY OTHERS DONT DO~~~
I - HOPE- U -KNOW- WHO-AM-I...


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MUAKXXX....

as i though u are not...BUT Actually u ar..

im so depressed to meet tonne of frenx that i believe on have makes me dissapointed..
as i believe in u but u turn another way round and fought me back..
wat the heck..

U NOE THE REASON WHY I IGNORE U AND STOP ASKING ME WHY???

u noe why i hate u and stop asking me why..
u noe ur mistake and stop asking me why..
i treat u as a frenx and u used me..
i treat u as a frenx and u play me..
i treat u as a frenx and u dun really treat me as urs..
i treat u as a frenx and u irritated me..
i treat u as a frenx and u annoyed me each and every day,every minutes and every second..

how can i say yes to u to be my frenx again?? u tell me...
cox u dun get it rite watx frenx means to u...
and evrytime i been nice to u , u try to be misundertanding by having a feeling tat i love u...
I CAN TREAT U AS MY BUDDY BECAUSE U ARE MY FRENX...

but each and everytime u asking me to be ur gf...
i got irritated by giving u the same reason why..

i noe u wanna be frenx wif me..
i noe u wan our frenx relationship to go on well...
but as ur attitude like that..how can u wan me be ur frenx back??
and u did a stupid decision by asking me buy a book backs to u as u promise that i shouldnt do it last time..??
how sissy u ar?? u tell me??
i dun blame and i dun wanna argue wif u wif that books that i need to return back new wan...
but i jux dun get it u use this thing as a revenge and all this ''misunderstanding'' is all cox by u...
U TELL ME , WHO IS BEING UN REASONABLE RITE NOW??
u tell me , u being like thix how u wanna me tell u watx wrong between u and me...

if i tell u why u sure irritated me gain'
and asking me and giving me tonnes of excuses plus I HATE THIX...
U NOE U ARE WRONG ...
stop being so innocent and act nothing wrong...

u have screw half of my life away!~~~

only LEFT one paper to go~~~~~

okie okie..
my nightmare is gonna over by tomolo..
by now i still havin bussinightmare...
i still got marketing to go....alamak!!!~~~

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stil need to get over thix paper 1st then only free marrr~~~~rite??

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wish me LUCK!!! yoyoyo!!

i CaN dOOOOOOOOOOO iT!!~~~

DARN...!!
my exam is tomolo..
even is small quiz..but then..i can say it effect alot on my grades yo!!
i wanna get HD...
halleluyah!!holly god plx help me!!
FINE....

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i got music tomolo,i got marketing the day after tomolo...
ohhhhhhhh...wat the heck!!!
im gonna be SIAU... and will end up in tanjung rambutan one day..
and plus i got the stupid trip to take over...
plus i got annual ball stuff to do...
holly god...
plx let me get thix over my head yo!!...
i wish..and i wish...
i will finish/accomplish them IN ASAP...........!!

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IM SO STRESS!!!!!!!
and i noe I CAN DOOOOOOO IT!! yay'

2nd ReGREAT-ing situation.. =.=''

darn...
it happens after the SEMINAR... few hours later i got nothing to do wif..
i plan to study my marketing...so i went to the ''activities room''..
(is a room for student to relax..thr have tv,books,sofa..which can makes student be comfortable in the room)..
tat time i already half death half alive..cox worry-ing bout the seminar stuff...
then i dun freaking bother the other situation tat happen-ing outside of my mind..
so i jux keep worry-ing...
then someone went in the room ...is HIM..
fine..tat time i got no feeling to consider LOVE HIM OR W'EVR'...
so i jux continue worry-ing..
then out of the sudden,i dunno where i hav the dare..
i told him bout' he seminar stuff...pretty okie then..
then he went out n went in the room gain'..
tat time my heart beat fast..
he was jux standing beside me..n i can c he is darn nervous too..then
we been silent awhile..(only can hear our breath sound)
haha..c we are darn nervous...
so was waiting for him to say gain'..
bt in the end he walk away..
fck!! it was jux a little closer to be couplke wif''
y dun he jux ask n stop being freaking nervous in frnt of me..
im waiting okie..
ALAMAK!! is like wasted ... holly god..help me!!~~~

ReGRET-ing gain'.... =.=''

it was a STUPID day for me...
it happen like thix...
usually every friday i dun have any clases...
i usually go for meeting or any important purpose ONLY...
so thix weekday(dunno when?bt i noe is not including friday)...
ms yip ask me to go for higher achiever seminar..
thix seminar is not for all student..only for HIGHER ACHIEVER nia...
and wat the heck happen to mis yip?! she ask me to go for tat stupid seminar..
fine...
so i went...it was early 9 o'clock..
(yo!! it was so darn early)
tat time i was half asleep...half awake...
i went to the conference room..
at 1st i tot it will be TONNES of student inside..
but in the end..its only 5 students...
blar!! =.=''
so without any doubt i jux went in..n i tot it was jux a seminar..
(wat i mean bout' seminar is sit down quietly and wait till them finish talking...tatx it..)
but it came another way round...
we have to do public speaking in front of all that stupid ppl...
AND I GOT SHOCK...
so wat to do?? i did my public BY FORCING n i DID IT BADLY..
I DARN NERVOUS...and i got all tense up..wtf!!..
so after the break..i ran away..quickly..
OK-LAH...EVRYBODY NOTICE TATX..
after few hours later andrew n e-foong told me bout ''my ran away'' stuff..maybe will caught into big trouble...fck!!
-I JUX DUN FREAKING CARE '-
bt somehow it stil tense me up at 1st..
i got nervous... sigh!!!

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wat?WAT?wAt???!!!!

DONT FEEL LIKE POST-ING...
so ...

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ignore this lame post!!

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