HEART BROKEN

i been disturb and hurt for all this moment,

couldnt even imagine what on earth is happening in my life on past few weeks,

am i here to carry responsibilities for my little brother ?

am i here to be very understanding on behalf of my parents,eventhough i still have thought and point of view BY myside?

and when i being so selfish, i could even give a damn by saying WHAT ABOUT ME???

but this doesnt mean i dont give a damn for my little brother~

is just that im getting piss off with all the trouble that he gave me and he,himself does not give a damn about evryone feeling !!!

and worst of all, he can be this selfish to hurt people that he loved him~

how can he understand all this????

AS HE BEING SO SELFISH UNTIL HIS GIRLFRIEND CALLED AND SCOLDED ME FOR NOT BEING RESPONSIBLE FOR HIM~

(AS SHE HAS NO IDEA WHAT ON EARTH MY BROTHER IS DOING AND BELIEVE ALL HIS LIE??)

WHAT ABOUT THAT???

" this is none of ur business" as he dare to pour out from his mouth as his sister carried all the burden for him~

ive tried many ways to communicate with him,

is just that he dont get it!!!

HE DONT GET IT AT ALL!!!!

and

HE COULD EVEN FORGOTTEN HOW HIS SISTER LOVED HIM SO MUCH THAT SHE DID THE BEST FOR HIM!!! and yet he claim that , we just dun understand him~

HELL NO!!!~

and the worst part is, my parents doesnt want to give a damn...

and god damn mom, just said JUST LET IT BE!!! AND KEEP PAMPERING HIM FOR BEING FORSAKEN GOOD MUM OF HIS~~

what on earth is that???

what about the sister who carried and being respected about his previous decison and he is ruined it???

what about the sister did all the best for him , as he just see nothing???

what about the sister who keep finding the best way to communicate with him???

is not that im being selfish and not understanding~

is just that im hurt here and hell who knows about that????

and the lil brother keep bleeding his sister heart!!

what about that???

im very disapointed by looking the way of my lil bro growing up~

im really am..

but when will he understand?

and when will he be mature and responsible about his life??

( as he keep thinking he really are)

dissapointed me

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Angel came in my LIFE~

arent he cute??
is a shih tzu~
is a gift frm my frnx ~
she cnt able to take care of him!!
so let me TAKE CARE~

haha

he is around 12yrs old..
old already~
very choosey in eatin
and also
sleep on time
approxx. 11pm, he will start snoring~

hahaha

kinda like human~
and he loves soft toys~
hahas

Arent he cute?
love
and
hug

x0

scam company

i went through this company...
is recommend by my frnx...
(i actually saw this at star job entry)
y not gv a shoot...

chip hup holding sdn bhd
no. 0122638760
e/3a/1
mega avenue 1
jalan tun razak
50400


while i went in the company,
is very suspicious,
the worker are all malay,
they are working in one big room,
and the receptionist dunno wat line is their company...
stupid rite??

and i saw a few feedback frm this compony...

http://tanyasifu.com/forum/isu-semasa/2760-info-penting-chip-hup-holding-sdn-bhd.html

http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/912765

becarefull guys....

><

i promise

i will be back
i promise~

Looking On the Right side~

speechless~
ive been sick for two times on this month~
speechless
=.=
damn tired the whole day..
and is
so hot and hot and hot~
=.="

i wonder whn the rain can turn into the snow?
i wonder whn the sun can closed by the cloud forever?
i wonder whn all the flu thingy will gone?
i wonder whn my semester start?

~nvm~

ive been hurting myself alot whn i got all this excuses and do ntg~
but sumhow, it doesnt feel nice whn we keep everything in the heart rite?
haix....
what am i suppose to do?

teach me!!~
teach me!!~

:(

irene wedding~

One of my LP(Leadership Programme) member,

is getting married~

ha~ damn proud of her~

it is irene and sam wedding, at subang Tai ThONG....

:)

lovely couple~

<3 <3

this is one of the scene on her wedding day~

The invitation card~

i kinda adore the chandelier ..
wish i have it at home ...

:0

u get wat this pic mean rite??
it happen evry wedding~

but this time is different for me~
hehe

cox i shout the most loud and the longest wan
haha

:)

apart of that...
ive to help mika and diane make over~

:0

suddenly, i become mika personal beauty consultant..
:o

"paid me"

:P

Lee Hom Concert

on the 2nd may, i went to lee hom concert!!~

wif jonathan,kelvin frenx,and also slyvie and woei tyng..

rmb his guitar? haha
i heard it was special made and it is an special edition~

how lucky he is!!~
and he bring it over to the concert too!~

he play all kind of instruments...
piano,violin and guitar..

he seriously is a music man~

haha

this is one of the banner that promote his ticket~

whn we went in...
a boston company gave us ang pao..
haha

inside got rm20 voucher and cash rm1

how worth it~
boston is a restaurant anyway~

><

... Adelaide,Australia

Chris yap is migrate to Adelaide, Australia..

We give him a last "hug" or "regard" bfor he left..

"sob" sob....

Still rmb, while waiting for us...he was busy re packing his bag~
cox over load..
><
and it cox rm1000++
for 1kg la wei~

and the flight ticket is only
rm600

.=.=

having dinner wif him at MCD , KLIA..
ME and the others are starving to death....
cox just after Karaokie-ing~ haha

last hug bfor he left to Adelaide..

><

O YA, we do him a booked bfor he left too~
thats included his family and the GLP
><

Bye Chris... we will miss u~
and rmb send post card~
hahaha

=.=

Bukit tinggi ~ pahang~

Went to Bukit Tinggi last few weeks...

=.=

The Bukit Tinggi, Pahang....

We sit shuttle bus there, with my old and long friends... haha

We visit alot of places and i bet this is the longest "hang out" we have been together....

We visit one of the small japanese village, and i get to wear kimono..

><

*proud*

Ms Yuri Washio~

while waiting for other in japanese village, me and the others...

"shock sendiri"

haha

went to rabbit farm..

dun ask y my hair like that...

haha

................long story.............

but the rabbit thr is fat and lazy~

i wonder y???

shock sendiri wif beii's

saw a fountain behind?

haha...

but we cant swim thr..

><

eventhou the place is near genting highland, but still...

it is damn hot~

so i grab an ice-cream

"yummmies.....

dun grab my ice-cream u big mouth

><

haha

Oh yea, we get to visit afew dears and donkey...

haha

but i couldnt get to ride a horse...

"geram"

at nites at the apartment,

afew of them gambles around ....

and u see wat thy did??

this is the punishment whn thy lose...

><

and we drank too...

clasberg.... cheers..

ee guat bday is the next day,

we celebrate her bday thr...and grab her a bag as her pressie's

wishing well ...

harh! im seriously,hope it come true man!

"cross hand"

saw the fish behind the pond??

damn cool...

ignore me for a moment.. haha

we were waiting for yeep,one of my frnx...

to arrive..

haha

we get to snap a few photos..

haha..

im a deer for a moment.. haha

haha..

we took this at the highest tower...

look at the moon..

haha...

but .. i get a wrg partner.. haha

our dinner la wei~

we dun plan to eat outside..

cox is darn expensive....

so we make our own steamboat thr..

><

i just love this post..

im cute neh!!~ haha

i.. i stop..

i stop for a moment...

seriously...

and

it hurt~

**

are u crazy~

*Crazy*

Im experiencing and dealing...

Due to lots of exam,paper,assignment and project...
i feel alot of preasure and worry for a moment...
msg jonathan,called up kelvin,msg beii...
seem it help me a lil...

SO...
i decided keep a book and everything in my head....away~
after cumin bck frm college~
i did not went bck home straight...
(*cox evrything stress is in my room)
i take a long walk and a moment for myself...
keep a deep breath..and start experiencing whr am i now at the moment
...

Journey to MIDVALLEY, in the bus...
listening to "cry on my shoulder"...
surprisingly, i did not buy the lyric bullshit..
(u knw wat i mean...)
i start to experience diff in my being and a tot in my head turn the otherway round...
it let me experience... how beautiful ppl is !!
and im looking at thm in the bus, looking how sparkles their eyes along the journey...
and how beautiful they are~

p/s i did not stare at thm... just browsing looking around and experiencing in the same time

im so surprise that this tot came into me!!~
and i just
shifted!!~

Way to MPH....
a book title "empowering ppl", that ive read a few pages..
a story in the book just let me look in a different perspektive in life.

the last list bfor i leave~

one of the story:

Money did not buy Contentment
(sumtin like that)

the summary of the story:

A fisherman way lying on the beach while enjoying the sunset.
there came a business man,with alot of stress...
asking him "y not u go and catch more fish then lying here do nothing"

fisherman: and then?
(with a bit anger) the business man :u will get more fish and u will get more money!!!@#$
fisher:and then?
(feeling piss off)business man: u will buy a big boat and start hiring ppl to work for u!!@#$
with calm..
fisher: and then?
(feel mad)businessman: u will let ppl do the job for u and u will not fuck care the world and start enjoying sunset!!@#$ DONT U GET IT???
fisher: so wat am i doing now???

.....
:)

Thank you~

My 21st bday with lp121!!~

LP121 ARE U READY??
LP121 GO!~
LP121 GO!~
LP121,
GO!~ GO!~ GO!~

Thanks for the cup cakes!!!

THANKS FOR DIANE, FOR THE LITTLE CUTE CARD!!~
THANKS FOR JONATHAN,LOU GONG FOR THE LITTLE CUTE CARD TOO!!~

ALL REMIND ME ABOUT!!

MY FIRST HANDMADE MUFFIN!~
*PROUD*

Thanks for the event and the cupcake:

special thanks too my beloved:

zang yi
quek
diane
sylvie

for all the preparation ...

i just love u guys!!~

u guys make me fly on my bday!~

thank u!~

As Im Keep Breathing~

After cumin bck in the hospital...
i have a deep deep talk with my grandpa...

Grandpa:
who always support me and believe in me...
who always give me hope and look high on me...
who always want me to take care of my family...
who always want me to be a leader and a protector in my FAMILY...
Who always trust me ~
WHO ALWAYS HAPPY FOR MY EVERY ACHIEVEMENT~

WHO ALWAYS LOVE ME~

I,Wendy Ng... IS TAKING UR ORDER ABOVE...
AND NEVER LET U DOWN~

And surprising he told me,

grandpa: wendy, after ur graduation.....i will bought u a car... i will open a shop for u..
make this happen and take care of ur family!!~

me: (stunning surprisingly.... and almost burst into tear...)

I WILL MAKE U PROUD!!~


DREAM,HOLD,FIGHT AND FLY~

The person tht have been with me...

Diane *in lp124 wow day*

As i saw this pic in diane blog,

makes me think of the journey ive been with her since advance course...
Well, have same nerdiness :)

*just that im more promoting, she is more controlling*

:P

Well,
everyone grow in this short time...
but,without support frm each other..
i think i couldn't make it in this far...
for who i am rite now...

and i miss the part when we having conflict in advance..

i bet u rmb... haha

and i miss the part when we support each other is LP..

This is a person who grow up with me...
and
this is the person who im having fun with..

<3

luv
wendy

hehe :)

Ive move bck here :P

cox i forget my previous blog password:P

*damn it*

Well, time pass...
very,very fast...

as im getting older soon...
as im graduating soon....

i makes me want to look bck my past...

as i ve a few of my pass pic..
><





I realise im getting fatter..
i mean
now><

c how pretty i am last time..

:(

the most adorable pic wif my sister..

i miss that part of me..
which im only 18yrs old..

haix...

i wish i can turn bck my time...

cn find bck my

sexy body
><

a men
=.=

lv
wendy

i have shift!!

i shift to....

http://truthbehindthestory.blogspot.com

come visit me :)

i always get what i want- avril :) so true

Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
koyote -soon jung

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
xiao xing xing- ah du

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
fireflys- A TEEN :p SO TRUE

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSe?
maria-kim ah joong

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
3 door down

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
find out -aceyalone

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
i do not want to miss a thing-aerosmith

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
cha yi dian-ah du

WHAT IS 2+2?
hanya kau yang mampu-aizat : only u can think off!! hahaha

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
lonely-akon :(

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
akon ft kardinal offishall-dangerous

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
i wanna love u-akon ft

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
want me, want me - amuro namie :) be myself

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
sempurna- andra and the backbone

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
numb encore- jay-z feat. linkin park

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
in the end- linkin park :) after so long, at last i got married.. hahah

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
breaking the habit-linkin park

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
faint-linkin park - whch mean i love to sleep .. :)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
love so sweet - arashi :) so true
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
one love- arashi :) so true

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
sakura sake - arashi :) after drinking sake.. hahaha

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
anything but ordinary-avril :) so true haha

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
oh oh

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
dont tell me-avril :)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
evrything back but u- avril :) when evrything going right hehe

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
fall to pieces-avril :) yes it is !!

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
forgotten - avril:) i forgot haha

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
i wont .. but HE WILL- avril... hahaha


WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
hot-avril :) yea the wheather

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
i always get what i want- avril :) so true

so true :) and so very true!!~

i want to tag sumbody
diane
slyvie
mica
mayvern

who c my blog, thy got tag:)