shall i give up on you???

i know u since im young,
i touch u since im young,


i always though that my future is in your hand,
i always though that i only love you.....
but why,

when tragedy happen, i start to lost faith on you
i start to afraid of you, i start to have phobia on you...
i did nothing wrong, u did nothing too....
but the fear that in my heart,in my soul......let me lost faith on you....
but then,

i have choose u to be in my future,
i choose you to be by my side,
but,
every time, i have too be brave to look at you,
every time, i have put away my fear to look at you,
do u know u make me suffer?
do u know u make me cry??

or did i make a mistake??
again,i ask myself....

DO I LOSE TO YOU OR TOO MYSELF???? :(

i have to realise ^^

shuld i say i hook up on sumone or sumone hook up on me??
doesnt matter...
but the thing is ... evrything is over.. freaking over baby!!!~~
i does not know this guy, until MY high school frnc( houi ling) told me about him... RITE!!~~

-interesting ya-

okie...

he is very fast very quick in action and i think is abit desperate tooo... =.=
i don't mind to say all out..but is weird.. ^^
frm the 1st time i cht wif him... i have strange feeling ..which is erm... (i just hate him) opps!!

i dunno why??? and i dun freaking care about it!!~~
but worst thing is ... we chat for only 1 day and he already choose to have a visit (outside) my hse... weirdo
i have an awkward feeling and i dont love it!!!~~

whn he reach at my hse around 1am... ehem, EXCUSE ME... IS FREAKING 1 AM...
and whn he reach, i just throw a harsh word on him...
is like this

* waiting wif anger*

... whn he arrive...

me: hi @$#%%^^&&*&

him : erm... hie!! i lost my way jux now.. and i never though.....(bla bla bla bla_)

me: excuse me( say in my heart) have u finish looking my frnx???

him: erm, ya!!~~

me: can u go bck now?? ( in angry tone)

- he is abit afraid-

him: erm, okie!!~~



i was like.... wat the hell is he doing this late nite too hook on me izit?? oh great... i nevr love u./....and i never did!!~~ plx let me go ... u idiot!!~~

(i dont understand why those day guys are so weird and so ... arhg)

enufff!!!~~~

i jux hate u okie!!!~~
i jux hate u!!~~
+

im afraid

im afraid again!!~~

im just afraid!!~~

i've been tag by jun wei

1.Real name - wendy ng wen li
2.Nickname - no wor(usually call me wendy)
3.Married - too young lerr
4.Male or Female - 100% straight female
5.Highschool - Malaysian Golden School... hahaha
6.College - Help international technology
7.Short or long hair - long long long.....
8.Are you a health freak - nope
9.Height - 163 cm.. jux nice ^^
10.Do you have a crush on someone - yup
11.Do you like yourself - I try too
12.Piercings - 2
13.Righty or Lefty - Righty ^^

FIRST'S

14. First surgery - nope..never..touch wood
15. First piercing(s) - Whn i was 12th years old
16. First person you see in the morning - my mom...my mom and my mom
17. First award - my 1 years old birthday cake n present.. hehe
18. First sport you joined - mmm .. net ball... (wakil class summo ler)... bt end up lose!! :(
19. First pet - dog
20. First vacation - forgot
21. First concert - TENSION...use too be famous those day(chinese band)

CURRENTLY

23. Eating - nope.. diet
24. Drinking - yup...
25. I'm about to - sleep.. so tired..but alot of homework to do ^^

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids - Yes but not many
27. Want to get married - haha..yup
28. Careers in mind - mmm... i still want to learn more then work... dunno y??

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes - my eyes...
30. Hugs or kisses - kiss
31. Shorter or taller - Taller
32. Romantic or spontaneous - Romantic
33. Sensitive or loud - Loud
34. Trouble maker or hesitant - Trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger - never..
36. Drank bubbles - bubble tea yes... bubbles..i dunno
37. Lost glasses/contacts - yup
38. Ran away from home - yup,whn i was young..(im innocent okie)
39. Liked someone younger - Nope.at least 5 years older or 10 years
40. Liked someone older - YUP! =)
41. Broken someone's heart - never
42. Been arrested - siao meh...
43. Cried when someone died - nope
44. Liked a friend - ahahaha.... seow hui n ee guat n sou koon n sin yee n alot more

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself - i try
46. Miracles - i hope for
47. Heaven - always
48. Santa claus -u think wat??? fairy tale r??
49. Angels - yup!!~~

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now - kim jae joong... hehehe
51. Do you believe in God - yup, always
52. Tag 5 people - mmm. whoever larh...