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Tuesday, May 1, 2007

at least i been cure abit!!



something makes me feel weird and a bit better today!!
i do charity work at kampung raja uda today.. not so bored...
since i getting a few new frenx there...

hahaha...
i get to noe sit senior(not adp senior..is totally diff..)
we talk alot of craps todays...

actually already plan on 8 in d mornin,tat senior will fetch us larh..
bt in the end he fetch us at 8 sumtin..i dun get to wait for him instead he was waiting for me...paiseh!!!
cox i woke up late.. n they wait for me around 10min..cox i need to bath n do sumting like tat..
in the end i rush 3x... haha...
so we went to sook yee hse...and then straight away got to the charity hse..
we sell bookmarks n chocolate...
at 1st i tot we wont get to sell everythin today..cox the both demand is less compare to others..
bt in the end ..hohohho!!! we sold everything..haha...
and i got praised frm d senior..

''adp student !! u got pontential here''..haha (duh!! of cox') haha...

im d only adp student thr since they dunno my name they call me adp... haha
after selling half of it i went to bought sum food thr wif ailing..i bought few drink n food..
when im having the last piece of my food tat senior take it frm me n eat ''yukss!!..
i ate already larh..bt he dun mind !! he jux ate nicely in front of me..
yer!!! haha..he is kinda maniac i think..

after selling. my senior fetch me bck to temple n my mom fetch me bck home...
i straight away went to bed until 8pm after cumin bck home..
cox i slept at 4am yeaterday doing craps things... haha

in the end..
i start to realizes my heart had been heal 10% of it already...
hope i can recover!!

Monday, April 30, 2007

나는 지금 겪고 있다!!

나는 사랑을 원한다...
나는 나에게 사랑안에 가을을 다시 할 수 있는 남자를 원한다...

줬다 나에게 사랑을 만족시키십시요!!

im 真剣にupset..for 何されるそれら。

私は忘れさせるものをのために自分自身を試みる...
しかし私は... 私が常にパスをリコールする原因できない..
そして私は常に私にしたものを覚えている...
私がback..it の作りを覚えているので私の中心はたくさん傷つく...
神は私がここから出るのを助ける...
私は呼吸に私のための場所が... ほしいと思う..
pitty 余りに長くのために苦しむことを持っていた私の中心。..
そして私を私が呼吸に... ほしいと同時に私が... 今有する行くために割り当てなさいすべての苦痛許可しなさい...

神は私がそれらが私がu の権利を今頼むme..as にしたすべてことを忘れるのを助ける。..


私によってが苦痛で... 今苦しんでいる原因..

Sunday, April 29, 2007

kimi no koto omou yo

tokidoki boku wa omounda, bokura wa umareru zutto mae...
hitotsu no inochi wakeatte,ikite itan ja nai ka tte..
datte karada ga hanaretemo, kokoro wa ima mo sugu soba nikanjiru...
itsu datte itsu datte, kikoette iru yo..
boku no na wo ,boku nona wo yobe koe...
douka mou nakanaide, kimi no omoi wa tsutawatte iru kara...

aru toki boku wa shittan da, betsu betsu ni umareta bokura wa..
dakara jibun wo fukanzen ni, omotte shimaun darou tte...
onaji shiawase wo negainagara.....

itsumademo ...

''Emo- ing''

i need to get outta here!!!! help me..plx some1 save me !!!

Saturday, April 28, 2007

i need new me...

i try to start my new life...
try to forget all the bitches around me n all the moronS...
hell ... !!!

y human life is so hard ...
y cant i go through my life smoothly IN PERFECT WAY...
hell!!!

...
...

sorry being so emo...




Friday, April 27, 2007

why does he EXIST!!

i was doin so great in my 1st sem.. until he appear..
i doin no harm to him..yet he bitting my butt ...
bit by bit... i forgive him thinking tat him as a small kid...
bt day by day worst acting that had done by him towards me tat cannot be forgave..
yet i sit down and calm myself thinking for every bits tat bites ...
and force myself to forgave him AS HE WAS A KIDS...
bt yet my heart been hurt days by days...
blood been licking frm my heart...
had full an empty pail..
bt yet im forcing myself to forgive him...

i got no time to hate him..
i got no time to curse him..
i got no time kick his butt..
i got no time to revenge...

all i did is sit down quietly...
praying to forgive wat he had done to me...
tat had hurt every bits of my heart...
tat had let every blood tat licking frm my heart...
...
...
and i wonder why does he exist in my life..
how nice he was far away frm me...
without letting my tear fill up an empty pail...
without letting my blood fill up an empty pail..
...
...

and his slave follow wat he done..
and his salve does not noe wat ''good'' n ''bad'' means..
and his slave does not advice him tat every bad thing tat he done..
wat a bad slave he is...
i wonder if they did not exist..
how wonderful my life will be..
fuck up all the stuff tat they done...they will fuck up themself one day..

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world have HE wil be no peace...