The changes we made,the extraordinary thing i had~

lp121 wif orphanage frm penang and pj.

we had our own life,we live wif it,
and some just WASTE it...

so.. what next??
blaming ? excuses? stories?victim?pity??
how long does we nid to do this??
shall we just live wif the story?
and live for the sack of living??

CHOICES.... ^^
*do think about it*

Door are mend to be open,
Wings are mend to be fly,
Open thou heart and start to *SHINES*,
Shall thou choose not too,
Shall thou choose have too,
Open thou eyes and see what next too,
and start to fly..

when we start to make a different to other people life?
when we start to appreciate?
when we start to open our heart and start acknowledge each other?
and when we start to do contribution?

sound familiar rite?

"how lucky am i to have a parents to love..
how lucky am i to have what i had rite now..
how lucky am i to see things that other haven had a chance too..
how lucky am i to have a relative and family to love me..."

when we stop acknowledge ourself?
when we stop appreciating?

so...
what about the orphanage in the pic?
are they as lucky as us?

and

what does the previous complain for?

*THINK*

is it important to me?

If its important to me,
so why am i doing this not necessary things rite now?
if its important to me....
why am i afraiding to take action..
if its important to me...
wat am i considering now...



PUT A FULL STOP NOW AND JUST DO IT!!~

wendy's back~

breakdown
stop
look
take action...

GOGOGOGO~~

take risk n create value!!~

WENDY GO!

well well welll!!!~

i go for the advance training !!~
well, at first it was a heavy for me..
i felt it was burden and it was a stress for me a first..
i got not enuff sleep, i got homework to do, i have to take care my buddy...
and i got whole lots of things to do and i still remember..
i was saying.. im death and numb by now..
haha
but after the training,
i reveal a new leave of me..
i start to realise tht i have ruin my life for pass 20 years ago..
and what had i create to make myself miserable...
i stop n look n stop n keep questionin myself...
and i regret for ruin my pass 2o yrs life!!~

this trainin realli help me to be mature...
help me to understand myself...
help me to create and aware ppl around me

i did appreciate this... i saw,diff ppl in this training,
i gt experience through thm by sharing on how thy ruin their life...
full regret n dissapointment

but...
i do appreciate thm on how thy teach me and
thy willing to share wif me
"how little spoilt gurl shuld behave like a lady"...

thank you !!
u guys are my best buddy tht i ever had!!

mb121( my buddy"kan,frm thailand" bday

mb122... i miss u guys

we create happiness and fun together~

we are "wendy".. :)

sing-k after the training...

we had lots of fun!!~

i always love u guys...

thank you!!~

well i decided!!

i put a full stop for it rite now!!!!
im decided to go on my WAY~~

well i decided!!

i put a full stop for it rite now!!!!
im decided to go on my WAY~~

alrite!!

my frnx ask me to be her model!!
WELL, i cant reject thou!!~
since she sayang me so much!!
hahaha

im no longer a spoilt princess okie!!
im a lady now ya!!

gud news !!~~
i've completely got new experience after the advance..
damn busy this few days
hahahaha...

gtg!~

yes!!

i made it to the ADVANCE!!!
i can postphone my exam.......
i can exempted for not going to the movie class!!!

i got work to do now!!!

GOGOGO!!!!~

yay!! but sad!! :(

hey,i make it to the advance man!!~~~
so happy!!~~

but then,

am i gonna postphone my exam? am i gonna tootally not goin for my movie classes?

can i do a win win situation??

:(

how??

how am i gonna make it for the ADVANCE??

well im so happie !!

im back!! sorry busy lately!!

well, i start to discover that we can live our life with full of happiness!!
but to some people, they like to complain alot about the life!!

welll,
people got complain,people got grungies... people got and people got...
sometime we even get lost in half way in our life!!
and some is regretting by recalling their past event!!~~

i was the above victim once...
but once i aware about it...

i START TO CHANGE...

I MET THIS PEOPLE ON THE BOTTOM!!!

THEY MAKE ME SEE WHAT LIFE IS... THEY LET ME SAW THE REALITY OF BEING PRESENT AS THE "PEOPLE" IN LIFE....

AND WE ALWAYS GOT TASK TO DO!!~~

I START TO MISS THEM THOUGH!!

THE DENTIST AND ME

THE FOUR PROFESSINAL PERSON AND THE PREETY PLUS THE CHARMING!!

IM PROUD TO KNOW THEM... THEY ARE MY ROLE MODEL!!

WE SHOUT , WE CRY AND WE LAUGH IN OUR LIFE!!

*PEACE*

CELEBRATION IN THE PUB AT PJ

I START MIXING WITH ADULT!!`

NOTICE THE ANG MOH??? IS THE FRANCE GUYS...

THERE ARE WENDY'S

THE GRUNGIES !! HAHAHA

THE WOMEN AND THE KID*me*

im proud of u guys !!

live life to the max!!

and thanks to chi yan and beii brought me here!!

we are growing up baby!!

xP

~psstt~~!!

something coming up real soon!!!

OH MY GOD!!

IM SUPER FAT RIGHT NOW!!

MUST LOST 10 KG IN ASAP!!~~

ANYONE CAN HELP ME TO LOST THIS MUCH WEIGHT IN ONE WEEK?

WEELLL..IM SHY!!

SOMEONE JUST POP UP N CONFESS TO ME...
WAT CAN I DO???

im sorry!! im just too depressed

i just got aint nothing to say....
i hardly get through everything in one time...
i have to take my time slowly slowly doo...
like tht how to do business next time lerr???....
i think will easily get collapse gua if i got the company...

haix...
maybe i must gain more experience...
maybe i must be abit alert...

im so jealous too those student who can work n study in one time...
i really i cant do tht...
i dunno y?
i wonder y i dun hav the ability to do that?? so sad larh!!~~
=.=

(jealous,jealous,jealous,jealous)

pray for me

hope evrything work well tml

pray hard for me!!~~

FAT

I START to realise im getting fatter....
sound like im having a few problem here....

i keep getting fatter thts y... =.=

cause of my diet plan i guess???

hard for me to eat accordingly ... =.=

to achieve my dream tummy =.=

SOMETIME I JUST WANT IT.....

:)

im back! yay!!

im gonna broke !! seriously!!
im going out so many times evry week...
so many "ying chou".. ehem ehem.. haha
spend so many money,
and

TADAH!!
IM BROKE!!~~
hahahah....


in this few weeks, i got to keep in touch with my high school friend,
well, after for so long-no-talk....
we get to share so many sampat thingy in evry minutes,evry hour we had,
haha...
we realli laugh alot tht time... xP

i get to know alot,and learn alot of thing tht beii intro...
thks to her!!
well, for sue ling n ee guat,
i get to share evry moment tht we had with them,
:)

again,
happie bday jer lynn!!~~

yesterday,i went to aeon to celeb her 20th bday with a bunch of HS(high school) frns,
we enjoy eating in bbq plaza...
(is a restaurant tht u can enjoy masak masak n makan!! hahaha)
after tht we went.............
SHOPPING!!

yup,thts the reason y im broke!! hahaha

yep!! random...

gambateh^^^
gambateh^^

Have too be

evry step im doing now,evry thing that i am done now....

I FEEL REGRET :(

but, is too late to turn bck my time...

I TOTALLY LOST MY LAUGHTER & I TOTALLY LOST MY OWN ME!!~~

Inside me only contain an empty feeling....an empty mind

and sometimes i feel worthless to myself!!~~

*after a few years consideration and regret-tion tht i've made*

i shuld start all over again!!~~

thr is thin hope that only i can open it myself.....

the only thing that can make me laugh again,the only thing that can make me feel good again is..

*SONG*
especially korean&japanese song
evnthough i dunno wat the hell they are singing...
but
the songs make me feel *ME* again.... and
there are 100% nicer thn chinese song..
(solli for chinese singer fan ya ;p)

i love to sing,i enjoy evry moment,evry steps,evry sentences of the lyric...
and i DO LOVE ENJOY SINGING....(eventhough my voice suckx)
but, tht was the only way i found my own self again...
SERIOUSLY...
* I ALSO DO HOPE THAT EVRYONE AND EVRY UNIVERSE CAN HEAR MY VOICE*
(even the chnces is soo tinny)

BUT,

let me try
*for the sack of my only dream*

hurtfull msg!!~

people always thought im proud, people always thought i got 2 faces, people always thought i got empty mind, people always thought im stupid,people always thought im annoying,people always thought im irresponsible,people always thought i bad stab,people always thought im full of ego, people always thought im a bad gurl, people always thought im lying,people always though im disgusting,people always thought im talkative... people always talk..people always talk.....

there is always "people always talk...." whn and they never ever stop talking .... they kept on and on and on... and u know what?? sometimes thy even "thought" whn they are doing the same mistake like me...wat is the different?? -sama sahaja larrr-

pointing others and being self proud - is not nice ~~

i do back stab,i do two faces,i do have empty mind,i do have low IQ,i do lie, i do ... and i do....

but,
ASK URSELF!!

do u guys backstab,do u guys having two faces,so u guys lie... yup,maybe u guys smarter thn me...but do u guys do the mistake that i did... i bet u did!!

but,
HEY!!

do u feel nice whn u complain others whn u also did it??


come on man!!
think twice!!

people always learn frm mistake ,and is the way they grow to be a better person... so do i,i did a mistake,i do wanna learn,i so wanna be a better person...dont u want too??

but,
hey!!

CAN U AT LEAST GIVE PPL A CHANCE TO BE A BETTER PERSON,BEFORE U START JUDGING THEM BY THEIR PASS?????

MAN!!~~ I NID A BREAK HERE... SERIOUS A BIG BREAK!!~~

- MAY GOD BLESS U GUYS DUDE!!~~

lovingyou ~~

JAEJOONG:
ano eki ni tsuita nara kimi wa mou boku no kanojo
janaku naru
sukoshi yukkuri aruite kimi wa kotoba sagashiteru

JUNSU:
saigo made iwanakute mo ii yo sono kao mite wa wakaru
kara
itsumo machi awaseshiteta kaisatsu ga chikazuku yo

YUNHO:
oh everyday boku no tonari de waratteta

YOOCHUN:
you far away mou nido to ano hi no kimi ni aenai ne

JAEJOONG:
Lovin' you tsunaideta kimi no te ga Lovin' you
hanarete yuku
Lovin' you boku no te wa nukumori wo Lovin' you
oboeteru no ni

JUNSU:
mamoreru to negatta kimochi wa nani wo oshitsuketa
dake kana
kimi no kokoro ga tojiteku sore sae mo kizukazu ni

YUNHO:
oh hard to say nani wo ieba yokatta darou

YOOCHUN:
so far away mou ichido egao mo kimi ni shitai no ni

JAEJOONG:
Lovin' you itsumade mo tsuzuiteru Lovin' you yume wo
miteta
Lovin' you donna hi mo kawarazu ni Lovin' you
kagayaite itayo

CHANGMIN:
ashita mata aeru mitai ni itsumo no you ni furimui te
hoshii
kimi to kita sono subete omoi de ni naru mae ni

JAEJOONG:
Lovin' you tsunaideta kimi no te ga Lovin' you
hanarete yuku
Lovin' you boku no te wa kimi dake wo Lovin' you
motometeru no ni

Lovin' you itsumade mo tsuzuiteru Lovin' you yume wo
miteta
Lovin' you donna hi mo kawarazu ni Lovin' you
kagayaite itayo

Lovin' you.. yume wo miteta

maybe he will be alrite~~~

i dont feeel rite
yes,im regret!!!~~~
*hate to admit*
but i have to do this!!!~~~

i dont feel rite when im with him....
i dont feel comfortable whn i go out with him...
i dont like that kinda feelllinggg...
which is not alrite for me at all!!~~

yes, we are friend!!!~~
but,to tell u the truth.......
u do not give me a "friend" feeling when i talking or going out with you...
maybe we shuld not start this...
maybe is my fault...

OR

maybe.... in past life i owe u 2months companion....

shuld be lar!!~~

im regret whn im doing this...
but,i think is better for me...
and is better for u...

you will be alrite then!!~~~
^^

shall i give up on you???

i know u since im young,
i touch u since im young,


i always though that my future is in your hand,
i always though that i only love you.....
but why,

when tragedy happen, i start to lost faith on you
i start to afraid of you, i start to have phobia on you...
i did nothing wrong, u did nothing too....
but the fear that in my heart,in my soul......let me lost faith on you....
but then,

i have choose u to be in my future,
i choose you to be by my side,
but,
every time, i have too be brave to look at you,
every time, i have put away my fear to look at you,
do u know u make me suffer?
do u know u make me cry??

or did i make a mistake??
again,i ask myself....

DO I LOSE TO YOU OR TOO MYSELF???? :(

i have to realise ^^

shuld i say i hook up on sumone or sumone hook up on me??
doesnt matter...
but the thing is ... evrything is over.. freaking over baby!!!~~
i does not know this guy, until MY high school frnc( houi ling) told me about him... RITE!!~~

-interesting ya-

okie...

he is very fast very quick in action and i think is abit desperate tooo... =.=
i don't mind to say all out..but is weird.. ^^
frm the 1st time i cht wif him... i have strange feeling ..which is erm... (i just hate him) opps!!

i dunno why??? and i dun freaking care about it!!~~
but worst thing is ... we chat for only 1 day and he already choose to have a visit (outside) my hse... weirdo
i have an awkward feeling and i dont love it!!!~~

whn he reach at my hse around 1am... ehem, EXCUSE ME... IS FREAKING 1 AM...
and whn he reach, i just throw a harsh word on him...
is like this

* waiting wif anger*

... whn he arrive...

me: hi @$#%%^^&&*&

him : erm... hie!! i lost my way jux now.. and i never though.....(bla bla bla bla_)

me: excuse me( say in my heart) have u finish looking my frnx???

him: erm, ya!!~~

me: can u go bck now?? ( in angry tone)

- he is abit afraid-

him: erm, okie!!~~



i was like.... wat the hell is he doing this late nite too hook on me izit?? oh great... i nevr love u./....and i never did!!~~ plx let me go ... u idiot!!~~

(i dont understand why those day guys are so weird and so ... arhg)

enufff!!!~~~

i jux hate u okie!!!~~
i jux hate u!!~~
+

im afraid

im afraid again!!~~

im just afraid!!~~

i've been tag by jun wei

1.Real name - wendy ng wen li
2.Nickname - no wor(usually call me wendy)
3.Married - too young lerr
4.Male or Female - 100% straight female
5.Highschool - Malaysian Golden School... hahaha
6.College - Help international technology
7.Short or long hair - long long long.....
8.Are you a health freak - nope
9.Height - 163 cm.. jux nice ^^
10.Do you have a crush on someone - yup
11.Do you like yourself - I try too
12.Piercings - 2
13.Righty or Lefty - Righty ^^

FIRST'S

14. First surgery - nope..never..touch wood
15. First piercing(s) - Whn i was 12th years old
16. First person you see in the morning - my mom...my mom and my mom
17. First award - my 1 years old birthday cake n present.. hehe
18. First sport you joined - mmm .. net ball... (wakil class summo ler)... bt end up lose!! :(
19. First pet - dog
20. First vacation - forgot
21. First concert - TENSION...use too be famous those day(chinese band)

CURRENTLY

23. Eating - nope.. diet
24. Drinking - yup...
25. I'm about to - sleep.. so tired..but alot of homework to do ^^

YOUR FUTURE

26. Want kids - Yes but not many
27. Want to get married - haha..yup
28. Careers in mind - mmm... i still want to learn more then work... dunno y??

WHICH ONE IS BETTER

29. Lips or eyes - my eyes...
30. Hugs or kisses - kiss
31. Shorter or taller - Taller
32. Romantic or spontaneous - Romantic
33. Sensitive or loud - Loud
34. Trouble maker or hesitant - Trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER

35. Kissed a stranger - never..
36. Drank bubbles - bubble tea yes... bubbles..i dunno
37. Lost glasses/contacts - yup
38. Ran away from home - yup,whn i was young..(im innocent okie)
39. Liked someone younger - Nope.at least 5 years older or 10 years
40. Liked someone older - YUP! =)
41. Broken someone's heart - never
42. Been arrested - siao meh...
43. Cried when someone died - nope
44. Liked a friend - ahahaha.... seow hui n ee guat n sou koon n sin yee n alot more

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

45. Yourself - i try
46. Miracles - i hope for
47. Heaven - always
48. Santa claus -u think wat??? fairy tale r??
49. Angels - yup!!~~

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY ~*

50. Is there one person you want to be with right now - kim jae joong... hehehe
51. Do you believe in God - yup, always
52. Tag 5 people - mmm. whoever larh...

im in big trouble

SHIT!!~~ IM IN BIG TROUBLE.....
BUT I CAN COPE!!~~~


DONT HAVE TOO WORRY!!~~

-.-

I ALMOST DIE IN MY EMPTY MIND!!

lord pleaseeee help me fill my empty mind bfor some "sin" coming in

pittyy,desperate....lonely
wendy ng

BEGIn ``

the left(Xiah Junsu,Micky Yoochun,Youngwoong Jaejoong,Choikang Changmin,Uknow Yunho)



"MY NEW LIFE BEGIN WHEN I LISTEN TO THEIR VOICE......."
SAID Wendy Ng, undergraduate student

i am already back...

alrite alrite alrite...

im back...im back..
oklarh,i've been disappear for so long...

but,im back... hahahaha........

im so damn frustrated for this few weeks...
and i dunno wat the heck is goin on in my head..
and yet i skip some classes due to my "not enuff sleep" and " too much project"
(i m not EGO okie!!!)
my frnx has scolded me for skipping classes and alll kinda "tao li" pouring out from her mouth...

make me feel guilty.. wth!!~~

IM STILL INSAF-ING OKIE DARLING!!~~

oh yea, im not preetty fine thix day....

i got not enuff sleep,i got not enuff time to rest,
im so super dizzy, but my life still have to go on... wth!!~~

true wat!!~~

mmmm.....

yup im complainin.

=.=

wth!!~~