나는 지금 겪고 있다!!

나는 사랑을 원한다...
나는 나에게 사랑안에 가을을 다시 할 수 있는 남자를 원한다...

줬다 나에게 사랑을 만족시키십시요!!

im 真剣にupset..for 何されるそれら。

私は忘れさせるものをのために自分自身を試みる...
しかし私は... 私が常にパスをリコールする原因できない..
そして私は常に私にしたものを覚えている...
私がback..it の作りを覚えているので私の中心はたくさん傷つく...
神は私がここから出るのを助ける...
私は呼吸に私のための場所が... ほしいと思う..
pitty 余りに長くのために苦しむことを持っていた私の中心。..
そして私を私が呼吸に... ほしいと同時に私が... 今有する行くために割り当てなさいすべての苦痛許可しなさい...

神は私がそれらが私がu の権利を今頼むme..as にしたすべてことを忘れるのを助ける。..


私によってが苦痛で... 今苦しんでいる原因..

kimi no koto omou yo

tokidoki boku wa omounda, bokura wa umareru zutto mae...
hitotsu no inochi wakeatte,ikite itan ja nai ka tte..
datte karada ga hanaretemo, kokoro wa ima mo sugu soba nikanjiru...
itsu datte itsu datte, kikoette iru yo..
boku no na wo ,boku nona wo yobe koe...
douka mou nakanaide, kimi no omoi wa tsutawatte iru kara...

aru toki boku wa shittan da, betsu betsu ni umareta bokura wa..
dakara jibun wo fukanzen ni, omotte shimaun darou tte...
onaji shiawase wo negainagara.....

itsumademo ...

''Emo- ing''

i need to get outta here!!!! help me..plx some1 save me !!!

i need new me...

i try to start my new life...
try to forget all the bitches around me n all the moronS...
hell ... !!!

y human life is so hard ...
y cant i go through my life smoothly IN PERFECT WAY...
hell!!!

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...

sorry being so emo...

why does he EXIST!!

i was doin so great in my 1st sem.. until he appear..
i doin no harm to him..yet he bitting my butt ...
bit by bit... i forgive him thinking tat him as a small kid...
bt day by day worst acting that had done by him towards me tat cannot be forgave..
yet i sit down and calm myself thinking for every bits tat bites ...
and force myself to forgave him AS HE WAS A KIDS...
bt yet my heart been hurt days by days...
blood been licking frm my heart...
had full an empty pail..
bt yet im forcing myself to forgive him...

i got no time to hate him..
i got no time to curse him..
i got no time kick his butt..
i got no time to revenge...

all i did is sit down quietly...
praying to forgive wat he had done to me...
tat had hurt every bits of my heart...
tat had let every blood tat licking frm my heart...
...
...
and i wonder why does he exist in my life..
how nice he was far away frm me...
without letting my tear fill up an empty pail...
without letting my blood fill up an empty pail..
...
...

and his slave follow wat he done..
and his salve does not noe wat ''good'' n ''bad'' means..
and his slave does not advice him tat every bad thing tat he done..
wat a bad slave he is...
i wonder if they did not exist..
how wonderful my life will be..
fuck up all the stuff tat they done...they will fuck up themself one day..

......
......''

world have HE wil be no peace...

hE ArE SpEcIaL To mE If hE~~~~

i wish he ...

who will leave my hair frm my eyes and then kiss me..
hold my hand in line at the mall & makes all the gurl jealous..
someone who can sing to me at random moment..
who will let me sleep on their chest..
a boy who can get -MAD- at someone when they call me ugly or somethin mean to me..
i wan someone who can call me 3 times a day when he's away..
some one who can let me gossip wif him..
some one who can let me nagg at him..
some one who can let me ''be myself'' when im wif him..
and would jux smile in everything i said..

he would throw soft pillow at me when i act dumb ...
and grab me and then kiss me in the million times...
someone who can makes me laugh forever!!!
he would bring me to the park and gave me a big bear hug..
he would tell hix frenx bout me and smile ...
we did make out in the pouring rain..
he would never b afraid to say ''iloveu'' in front of his frenx..

he would be the 1st one to accompany me when im down..
he would be the 1st who call get the 1st news bout me..
know every detail bout me..
spot my mistake and change me when im wrong..
laugh at me when im silly or when im mad..

most important is..
MAKES ME LAUGH ALL DAY LONG...
AND...
TAT CAN BE MY BEST FRENX AND NEVER BREAK MY HEART...
AND...
ALWAYS BY MYSIDE....

( he is the best in the world if he is ...)

we FINISH THIX!!!

(a few things tat we work out for)

thix year annual ball will be the best wan..and we will make it the best among the best..hohoho!!
we have finish thix almost a month..
and tq god we have done everything!! hohoho!!
design 'bove all done by andrew,me and rayvin.. (we only give few opinions)
we rush n rush like hell..haha..
bt end up we manage to finish it..

well,this is the best creativity ever among last 10 yrs..
it looks cool and everybody love it..
rayvin always said
'' wendy,plx make it the bestest among last 10 yrs''
or
''wendy,we wanna do this the bestest among last ten yrs''

man,i can seriously told u guys, i getting tense b'cox of thix word..
and i feel like im havin a big burden b'cox of tat.. -.-
wow!!!
bt after i get through thix activity or ''task'' or we might can say ''work''..
i get to learn more..especially..(plx dun b blur when do anythin,or else boss will kill u)..haha
since rayvin noe im blur enough,
he always remind me bout the thing i handle.
(cant blame me y i rush u andrew,cox boss rushing me too!!)..haha
i think my job will never end..
cox i started to design the booth,hotel and ''cards''...
and i need to sell the ticket too.. =.=
so pitty with my frenx who under me..
cox they need to suffer too.. (sorrii ya)
oh yea..i got a new member who goes under me..
he is in pharmacy program..
i will intro. wif u guys soon(ppl who is in the member)..
at least he can help us out...hohoho!!

im back!!!

(sorry for ''blurr'' pic. cox i scan!! haha..is no digicam i used ...tatx y need scan)

huhuhu!! im back

sorry for late posting .. cox im busy like hell!! eventhough im in holiday!!
oh yea,i went to pangkor wif my frenx last week..
i only can show u guys few pic(shown above)..
cox most of it when i scan it , it look worst then above.. no idea why?
(im new to scanner machine anyway)..hohoho!!
i went there for 4days 3 night!! its cool okie..haha
snorkeling , ''travelling'' , and lotx of lotx of stuff...haha
i stayed at pei zhi hse.. (no need spend money on hotel)..hehe
frm my breakfast- dinner, all pei zhi belanja wan..hohoho..
i only spent most of my money on small junk food!!! haha...
i get to noe new frenx..and new buddy there..(bt all is pei zhi frnx la)
after long while lepak-ing there..i start to realize pangkor island mostly lookx like klang town..
only klg town got more car and more shopping centre..
their main transportation is ''motorcycle''...( cox car cant fix in)
there a few cars also bt... only kancil -smallezt ..and the only biggest is toyota..haha
i think merz cant fix in..later trafic jam..haha

after comin bck frm pangkor,i stil have to suffer also..
cox my banner all not yet finish..
bt few days later i get to finish all..(all cox of andrew, tqtq!!)
(i will post it up tomolo to let u guys c)
after few days..tat yan dong ajak me to redang..man,he call last minute and told me bout pangkor trip... bt at last i din go..cox my work belum habis..
(eventhough he sponsor my bedroom n my transportation) so good!!! hehe ..
bt too bad i cant leave my job ... sorry ya!!!

jux drop few things tat i did lately..
and then sambung tomolo!!!
haha...

-continue-

zhi xiang ai ni

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zY3_POdY14A

referring to the previous entry

-(TOO BORED,SO WE DO THIX KINDS BORED STUFF)-
DONT WE LOOKX LIKE NEMO!!! HEHE....

i waste my ''THURSDAY''...

today actually i dun have any test at all...
should say is a holiday already..
then...
i went to skol today to gave my proposal n the whole new idea to ee fong n andrew...
we almost need to start all over again ..man!!! this is hard...
then luckily that BIG BOSS did not plan for it-only for design nia the rest all change-
(^.^) thank god!!
.... hehe...
we plan to finish everything bfor monday...
hope ee foong n andrew sent it on time !! -or not im death meat-
...
...

in the afternoon me ,pei zhi n teck lun went to find that bastard-idiot-landlord..
man!!! they almost got cheated... -tat time pei zhi will be begger d- hehe!!
but thank god we got the money back safely!! fuuuhhhh yohh...
after that i plan to accompany wulan to buy ticket...
bt in the end she cant!! cox her pass port is still wif immigration..
s0,our plan is off!!! chehhh!! -tot can go kai kai at klg-
wulan nagging n jumping cox need to stay in klg for a week...haha (she damn funny bt pitty her)
i find pei zhi and accompany her to computer lab...
while she study her IT i go on9...
.....tick tock...
.....tick tock...
the time went off damn slow until i dunno wat to do in com. lab...
my frenx sud come over then i took her camera fon. to take my own pic. (shock sendiri)
wat to do?? im damn bored...

i can tell u today the whole day i do nothing...
uh!!! bt i still feel tired...
maybe sit until backside tired d...
haha...

but thix makes me realise I WASTE MY TODAY!!!

sorry guys...

sorry for late posting..
cox my house streamyx connection cant on..
it took me a long time to do the connection...
until now i stil having problems on it...
I START TO DO MY BLOGS IN SKOL!!
ah,what the heck!!
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i having final now!!!only thix week...
that i could wish i will get passes in all my exam..
i noe is sucks... is suckx to me too.
Yoh!!! life aint easy okey
...

yesterday was like nightmare to me...
i call that damn ee fong.. and he did not answer or even reply my msg...
i got pist off,and i wonder ''wat d heck !!! how am i suppose to do??''...
he hold my logo for few days and he did not sent it to me...
my god!!!
until today , i went to school...
he told me that he did sent it to me more then one time of time..
and i swear i did open my mail tonne of times bcox of his logo
i was panic, and wonder how to tell my boss bout it?
i wonder!! where the logo goes???
-vanish in thin air- piss......
only 2 possibilities- i gave him wrong email address or he type wrong add...
but luckily he manage /willing to draw the logo's for me...
or else im in dead meat...
i happily gave the logo to my boss!!!
(-game over-)

another task came...
after the meeting...
the secretary came to me (she looks like worry and panic)
and she told me ''wendy,now everything change..we need to re do again''
my head almost burst..
me n my frenx rushed for that project..
and it end up nothing...
nothing at all...
THE WORD RE-DO makes my head almost blew up!!!
and i wonder why why why!!!
HAIX...DAMN U!!!
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i need to wait for my todays meeting around 6 pm...
and waiting for further bad news!!
SO STUPID!!!